At that time, I wasn't sure my biology grade was going to be high enough to get me into the nursing program I had been conditionally accepted to, and it seemed like all the right doors were opening and closing. It was so obvious, I thought.
And then God said no.
But then my biology mark went up.
And all the other doors started opening and closing.
Long story short, I'm now a nursing student. And loving every second. It was totally the right thing and everything has worked out so perfectly this far. He is faithful.
Last night, I was at a worship night at my church and we sang "You are For Me" by Kari Jobe.
Why is it sometimes so much easier to admit God's love and faithfulness to us than it is for us to say it back?
I definitely don't think there's anything wrong with reminding ourselves of Him... "Well, of course He loves me despite my failures... He's *God*."
But at some point, we need to return the devotion.
I came home from the church and left again to go pick up my sister from work.
I get in the car and turn on the radio and Tobymac* is playing.
*I would not classify myself as a Tobymac fan, but he does sometimes have really awesome themes and he loves Jesus. Loving Jesus is always a good thing.
"Whatever I've got to be, I'll be for You..."
On the first day of my program orientation, we were asked to make a list of three reasons why we were going into the program we chose.
"And," the director told us, "hold onto this list. Not just for the next 16 months of your schooling, but for the rest of your life. Chances are, you'll still be a nurse in 30, 40, or even 50 years. Don't forget what made you want to do it when you first started."
And so, my notebook from that day contains my class schedule, my budget for the next season of life and schooling, and a page titled "Why I Want To Be A Nurse". Funny enough, the first one is ministry, the very thing I thought nursing school had taken from me.
"1. Ministry. Being a nurse gives me the opportunity to speak into the lives of people who are at their weakest most vulnerable moments."
Pastor Tim has been speaking a series about "Divine Guidance" the past few weeks.
He made one point that, maybe if we focused less on finding "God's will" for our lives and focused more on following His *ways*, we would naturally begin to do His will.
At one point, I was so convinced that God's plan was for me to go into vocational ministry, I thought maybe there had been a "mess up". And my bio improvement was just because of studying habits and nothing to do with God's plan for me.
There was no mistake. And if I would have failed biology and went into ministry, there would have been no mistake. And who knows, maybe I'll get my nursing licence and work my way through a couple theology courses.
But God is God whether I'm a nurse or a pastor or ___.
God is God, and whatever I've gotta be, I'll be for Him.
I came home from the church and left again to go pick up my sister from work.
I get in the car and turn on the radio and Tobymac* is playing.
*I would not classify myself as a Tobymac fan, but he does sometimes have really awesome themes and he loves Jesus. Loving Jesus is always a good thing.
"Whatever I've got to be, I'll be for You..."
On the first day of my program orientation, we were asked to make a list of three reasons why we were going into the program we chose.
"And," the director told us, "hold onto this list. Not just for the next 16 months of your schooling, but for the rest of your life. Chances are, you'll still be a nurse in 30, 40, or even 50 years. Don't forget what made you want to do it when you first started."
And so, my notebook from that day contains my class schedule, my budget for the next season of life and schooling, and a page titled "Why I Want To Be A Nurse". Funny enough, the first one is ministry, the very thing I thought nursing school had taken from me.
"1. Ministry. Being a nurse gives me the opportunity to speak into the lives of people who are at their weakest most vulnerable moments."
Pastor Tim has been speaking a series about "Divine Guidance" the past few weeks.
He made one point that, maybe if we focused less on finding "God's will" for our lives and focused more on following His *ways*, we would naturally begin to do His will.
At one point, I was so convinced that God's plan was for me to go into vocational ministry, I thought maybe there had been a "mess up". And my bio improvement was just because of studying habits and nothing to do with God's plan for me.
There was no mistake. And if I would have failed biology and went into ministry, there would have been no mistake. And who knows, maybe I'll get my nursing licence and work my way through a couple theology courses.
But God is God whether I'm a nurse or a pastor or ___.
God is God, and whatever I've gotta be, I'll be for Him.
if we focused less on finding "God's will" for our lives and focused more on following His *ways*, we would naturally begin to do His will.
ReplyDeleteThat's the truth!
I absolutely love this, definitely went through some similar struggles when it came to getting into post secondary. I had a point where it seemed like He was closing all the doors, when suddenly He opened doors that I didn't even know existed. And I love that about God, the fact that He works in the most unpredictable ways and that He gives us the craziest wake up calls at the moments we most need them.
ReplyDeleteAlso, I love what you said about how God makes no mistakes. The fact that if we find ourselves somewhere, God has put us there for a reason.
I hope everything goes well for you in nursing this year! :)
Yes, yes, YES!! Exactly what mamalena said!! I was going to write the exact same comment, but realized how copycat that would've sounded! ;)
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